~ Jamie Ridler
What do you wish for an abundance of?
Well, the first thing that popped into my head when I read this was LUCK! But I am trying to minimize dichotomies in my life: good, bad, lucky, unlucky... things just *ARE* and choosing a side is judging and judging *anything* ultimately leads to judging myself; so ... What am I really wishing for?
I think over the past week or so. Life's been a merry-go-round, up & down, round & round, and really going nowhere... I was sick with a cold, yet started my first days of subbing this year; spent some time out with the family, but felt pretty alone and distant; the rainy weather turned nice and I wanted to spend time together with my partner, but was too stressed to enjoy it and feel I ruined the whole day; and today after working with people who do *not* share my ideals of what teaching should look like, I found my car with 2 nearly flat tires, and the autoshops all closing before I could get a tire.
So yes, the first thing that popped into my head was LUCK! I feel like things have been going all Murphy's Law on me, and I never felt like that before. I've always felt very lucky. Sure I had rough spots, but they always worked out ok and nothing THAT BAD has ever happened to me, really. So do I really need LUCK? I'mma hafta say no.
What do I really want more of though? An ABUNDANCE of? Well for starters, more of that ice cream I just finished.. omg YUM! XD
No... seriously though, I'd like more energy, aplomb, and financial solvency to deal with life's little rough spots. I'd also like to find my life bubbling over with joy, laughter, sunshine, music, dancing... Like I've somehow recaptured the feeling of swimming every day...